My entry into the wonderful world of psychotropic drugs!

At my last visit w/ the oncologist I was given a list of meds I can't take before the surgery.  Of course, one of them is my beloved St. Johns Wort.  Now, given that I was barely hanging on with that, the thought of two weeks w/o it before surgery was WAAAY beyond anything I can handle.  Thankfully my doc is very understanding and put me on Clonopin.  Oh how I love my new happy pills!!  I almost feel like my old self, and thankfully haven't had anymore breakdowns.  I'm not really one for being all medicated, but honestly, having the edge taken off is really making life a LOT more bearable.  I don't know how I would have made it through this week at work w/o them.

I'm still stressed out about all this, but I'm trying to keep my focus on the most immediate things: namely getting through surgery and figuring out how to survive until I'm working again.  I'm anticipating a smooth surgery and good pain meds for post op.  Since I'll be in the hospital at least overnight, I'll definitely have my laptop with me (yay for having a personal hotspot!!), so I'll have lots of hours to harvest my crops and clear my frontier homestead! Of course, I'll keep everyone update w/ how I'm doing.  I'm also happy to have visitors bearing flowers and treats of a chocolate or pastry nature (no balloons though, they scare the cats)

The next major crisis is coming with the financial hit.  Thankfully my insurance is covering nearly everything, so I won't be overwhelmed w/ medical bills, but it's rent and living expenses that are gonna be scary.  For now, I've got two more paychecks coming, and have been looking into assistance, although I seem to be falling through a LOT of the social service cracks.  Ugh!  I told my attorney I wanted to go ahead and just settle my car accident, so god willing that will come shortly, and that should solve all my financial worries.  But for now, fingers crossed that it will all work out.  

God never gives us more than what we can handle, right?